Saturday, April 30, 2011

Someone's words

"Love isn't about the romantic nights or gifts. It isn't about the fireworks going off around you when you have that first, real, kiss. Love isn't about kissing in the rain and dancing beneath the stars. It isn't about the big moments or big surprises. Love is not a fairytale. Love is about still having the butterflies after years. It's about the second looks and laying in bed wide awake, all night, because you can't go to sleep mad at each other. It's about being willing to sacrifice, literally everything for someone, just because you care so deeply for them. It's not about buying them gifts, but it's about leaving them little presents here and there, just to remind them that you are constantly thinking about them. Love is about all of the little things that add up to really big things. Love is rare and special, but should not be treated as if it would break. Love needs to be thrown around and beat up a little bit, worn in, but not worn down. Love needs to be a comfortable feeling, a place to go when NO ONE else in the world can relate. A safe place, where you know no matter how ugly you look or how angry you are, you will still be...loved".

Unknown (via atomos

Friday, April 29, 2011

Camel Coats...

I don't know why, but for some odd reason, all my dreams last night were dominated by camel coats. Both men and women wore them in my dreams. I don't remember the particulars of any of the dreams i had last night, all i remember is the similarity in what everyone had on. The funny thing is, i'm really interested in getting a navy blue or khaki green military inspired coat for our upcoming winter in July.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

There's No Title...

Hi everyone. How did you spend your Easter break? To those that celebrated Easter, a happy belated Easter from me. Hope you all indulged in some form of chocolate consumption. I didn't; not because i didn't want to but because i'm lactose intolerant and couldn't be bothered looking for brands that sell diary/lactose free chocolate.

Well, here in Australia we had a 5 day long weekend due to Easter and ANZAC day coinciding in the same period. Hence, today is the last day of my 5 day weekend.

I have to say i spent most of the weekend thinking and evaluating myself at the current state and i tend to do most of the time. I was actually planning to go to church on Sunday, but  something occurred that morning that got me a bit upset; and i have no intentions of talking about it anymore because Sunday is already over and as at Monday morning, i promised myself i'll try my best to let go when people piss me off instead of going to bed with my frustrations. I usually try not to be vocal when i'm upset with someone because i'm blunt on a daily basis and extremely blunt when i'm upset. So it's always better for me to bite my tongue and shut up until i've calmed down a little bit. The funny thing is i don't even show my anger; but thanks to my inabilities of being a good liar, my irritation is generally written all over my face!

Anywhoo, this weekend, i was just thinking what an amazing world it would be if all religions just accepted each other and didn't feel the need to point out that their own way is better than the other. I'm a Christian (or as my Mum likes to call me, a partial Christian because there are certain things i don't accept); i was born into a strictly religious family so i know all i'm meant to know and abide by as a Christian. On Sunday, i chose to listen to/ and read some of the Easter sermons that were preached here in Australia and in England. I have to say i was quite offended by some of them and it almost led to my Mum and I having an argument (she's a Pastor). Luckily for me, i like to be a good child so we agreed to disagree and all is well in our modern-daughter relationship :). Even though we have our disagreements once in a while, i'm so lucky to have a mother who listens to what i have to say even though she doesn't accept and isn't common in the small town i come from.  

The Sunday conversation got me thinking about how my cultural upbringing keeps fighting with me on what i believe in and what i choose to accept. I guess it's one of the downfalls of being an only child; there's so much pressure on you to be everything they would dream of in all their kids. My mum never ceases to complain about how western my thoughts are and how i need to become more Nigerian. Us Nigerians are too judgemental for our own good and we always want to assume that our way is the only right way

Well, i beg to differ. If our way was so perfect, our nation wouldn't be the way it is. The advantage of being educated in different countries is the ability to observe and absorb other cultures. No one is perfect as a human being and there's no one right way is which to find the path to a happy life. I truly hope that when my mum comes over to visit for my graduation, she'll understand why i'm the way i am and also open up her mind to other notions other than what she assumes to be the 'only correct way'.

On Monday morning, i decided to take Catherine R. Staat's advice from this post and slowly incorporate it into my life. The universe was obviously listening to my thoughts because i got this lovely post in my inbox and Shannon posted this on her blog; these made my Monday quite a good beginning to this lovely week. I'm still a bit stressed as per my last post, but things are moving along slowly and i very much appreciate it.

Happy Tuesday everyone

PS: Upon reading this post, i've just realised how much of a boring ramble it has been. Sorry if i've bored your eyes but i just had to :)

Friday, April 22, 2011

There's A Void

There's an emptiness inside me that i'm constantly trying to fill.
I've felt this way for years but all my attempts to remedy it hasn't yielded any positive results.
It seems like as the years go by, the more difficult it is for me to fill this void
So i'm always trying to keep my mind busy so that there's less chances of me worrying about it
But at the end of the day, the void is still there; and sometimes, it leads to sleepless nights

For some reason, this feeling has been pronounced lately
I feel like i'm at a standstill because i have no idea what to do anymore
And that feeling in itself frustrates me
And now it's becoming a struggle to fall asleep at night because i can feel it right there
And at that very moment, i can't run away from how i feel

Monday, April 18, 2011

Some Sort Of Update

I've been on uni break since last week and that has definitely put me in the slow groove of things. Nothing much has happened lately, i've just been relaxing and enjoying the fact that i don't have any tests to study for neither is there a need to go to lectures. But all that is slowly starting to change as i do have classes from next week accompanied with my regular weekly tests and an essay due. Without further ado, i'll let you in on what's been happening with me over here

* I joined thy gym AGAIN! On Wednesday last week while at the mall with my flatmate, we came across the Fitness First stand where they offered a month free as part of the 12 month gym membership. So i went to have a good look around the gym again to see if i was interested. Although the month free promotion was good, i needed more to tempt me to sign a contract. After a lot of teasing and haggling with their general manager, i got offered a Results First program for free. Basically, it's meant to cost $70 and comes with 3 sessions going for 45 minutes at a time with a personal trainer. You also get a customized workout and a few other bits thrown in; but because i wasn't sure if their joining fee was worth my money, the manager offered to pay for the Results First program only if i signed up on that day. Of course, i jumped on it!

* On Thursday of the same week, a sales party was organised in the mall where all the stores had some sort of offer going on. Funny enough, i was very tame and didn't spend much. I got workout clothes and saved $70 in the process; and a pair of military boots. I had my eye on 2 actually but i had to pick only 1 (similar to the picture above). The only problem is i keep dreaming of the 2nd one. It's not your regular biker boots you find here in the mall (or so i think); and because of this i want it soooo much! It has buckles in the exact manner i've always pictured my perfect biker boots. The only problem is it's in black and i already have a black pair. So it's a bit difficult for me to justify buying another. Now i'm considering putting it on lay by

* I watched Paul on Thursday night and i absolutely loved it! Ok, maybe i'm a bit biased because i have a thing for movies written by Brits and also movies with Aliens in it, but it absolutely rocked. We were actually meant to go watch Fast 5 cause the lady here told us it was already out in ShellB. But when we got there, we realized it not out anywhere until this Wednesday. It does have quite a few profane words in it so if you can't stand that, i suggest you don't go watch it or just have your mind prepared :)

* At the moment, there are lots of items saved on my ASOS basket. Thank God for the 'save for later' button they added to their page. I can't seem to get this dress off my mind and it currently retails for A$63.09. Maybe i should give it to myself as a graduation's hoping that ASOS still has it in stock come July

Happy Monday everyone

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Denim Jackets...

It seems to me that everywhere i turn, there's denim jackets; i'm loving the one Emily Blunt has on. I know it's Spring for the rest of the world but here in Australia, Autumn is still playing hide and seek. But that hasn't stopped the local stores also carrying denim jackets. With my new found obsession with all things maxi, i can definitely see a place for a denim jacket in my life. So all i need to do is hunt down the perfect one; i want something with a western look

On another note, i've gotten all my mid session scores back and all i can say is PHENOMENAL! Happy Tuesday bloggers

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Picture Perfect

Ladies and gentlemen, i've had a very long day. I just did 50% of my assessment for one subject in the space of 5 hours and now i have to wait patiently for the next few weeks before i find out my scores. At the moment, i feel refreshed, relieved and extremely tired. I know, all those words don't seem together, but for some reason i feel all those things at the same time. My eyes are heavy because i'm tired and in need of a long sleep in. I don't want to go to bed too early so i don't wake up in the middle of the night with nothing to do. I was too tired to make anything to eat tonight so i had a bowl of custard and two handfuls of red grapes; washed the entire thing down with a large cup of water and i already know that it was too much to drink all at once.

How's everyone's day going? Just to express my relief on the fact that my academic week is over, do enjoy the pictures below and have a lovely time :)

 Katie Holmes
 Mary Kate & Ashley Olsen
Jason Statham & Rosie Huntington-Whiteley

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Currently Suffering From...

...BRAIN FREEZE. Something has to be said for having so many assessments back to back. I truly hope my exam timetable isn't going to mirror this. My brain has shut down and i can't assimilate anything further. It took me 10 minutes to read one page and that was enough sign for me to give up. I'm going to go get ready for bed now and clock in at least 8 hours of sleep so i can be refreshed for my next assessment in the morrow. I just felt the need to drop by and say a quick hi to you guys :)

Hope all is well and you are all having a fantastic Tuesday!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Off To A Good Start

I couldn't have imagined a better way to start my week. I got my marks back from the group assessment i had last week and it was absolutely phenomenal, i certainly didn't expect to get the scores i did and it has boosted my confidence for the remaining assessments i have this week including a presentation on Thursday evening. My first test for the week was at 11.30am and although i went in with some nerves fluttering, i think it went alright. Unfortunately my tummy wasn't happy with the fact that i had sesame baguette for breakfast cause it kept growling like i'd consumed something with a high amount of lactose :(

I'm currently very tired but still pushing on. My next test is at 8.30am tomorrow morning and this is one of the most tricky subjects i've done to date because usually, all the options given for an answer are correct to a certain degree. So you need to be aware in detail of what you're being asked or you could end up losing a few precious marks. But i'm going to keep studying for about 2 more hours before heading off to bed. I'm hoping to get 8 hours of sleep tonight as i did that last night and it was so refreshing.

I'm desperately in need of some coffee as i haven't had any in about a month now. I'm going to try my best to avoid it but i have a feeling i might cave in with all the stress from uni work this week. Oh well, what can i say? 

I hope your week has gone off to a good start. Monday is almost over here and i know there are some around the globe that are just beginning their Monday. So, happy Monday everyone!  

Saturday, April 2, 2011

One Step At A Time

As the days go by, or should i say as i get a little bit younger, i'm learning that one step at a time works much better. I'm one of those people who need to see a result within 2 weeks in order to keep my motivation going. I lost interest way too quickly and i have a very short attention span, i also get irritated at the speed of light when i find that all the effort i put into something has turned out fruitless. I currently can't think of anything more infuriating than that. I guess that's the best part of being a student; when you study really well (not necessarily hard) for an assessment, you end up with good results.

My knees popped out of their socket on 2 different days this week so i haven't been able to work out as much as i'd love to. Let me just say that i absolutely hate working out, i would eat spinach for the rest of my life if it meant that i didn't have to work out. But i do it because i know my body needs it and because it's another way to stay healthy without any medications. My right knee is currently still sore so i can't really do much until next week hopefully.

Having PCOS has taught me to be much more patient i think. I remember when i was in England and went to the gym religiously whilst working with a personal trainer and dietitian only to lose 2 pounds at the end of the year. I immediately cancelled my gym contract and that was it. Now i'm just learning that it's all slowly but surely, my world certainly won't end if the numbers on the scale doesn't reduce. I'm trying to accept the here and now and just deal with it one day at a time. Sure, i have my days where i'm beyond down and it would take aliens to get me back in the groove, but i guess that's just another part of life.

Now i'm trying to go by the mantra of 'One day at a time'. One workout at a time. One issue at a time, all in a day's work. So everyday this week, i've been doing my best to put a smile on my face and go about my daily innings and i have to say it's kind of worked. Of course, sometimes i've had to force myself to smile but you know what they say 'fake it till you make it'. And even though i've been wearing the same thing i always wear which mainly consists of something black, i've gotten more compliments this week than i have since the beginning of the year. Go figure!!!!!!!!

Right now, my head and eyes hurt from studying. I have 5 assessments next week within the space of 4 days but after that i have a 2 week break from uni and all i need to do during the break would be attend group meetings for the remaining assessments we have after the break. And if my knee doesn't feel better by Thursday, i might have to go see a doctor (i hate going because he already knows me by my first name!)

Happy Saturday everyone :)